Have decided to start writing my journal (which will eventually become a blog when I become tech savvy enough to sort that out) because if I don’t have some kind of outlet it’s possible I’ll stab someone. Day one of a cycle that I never thought I’d see. I did EVERYTHING right – no alcohol, no coffee – actually I still buy a takeaway but I just sniff it and pretend to drink it. Bit like how smokers pretend to smoke a pen. I use to think that was a bit weird how they’d do that but when I think of the things I’m doing to try to get pregnant NOTHING is weird anymore. Anyway, all conditions were perfect this cycle – if you get my drift and it still damn well failed. Pissed off big time. Went grocery shopping and suddenly realised that the keep the tampons nearly right beside the nappies. Ironic or cruel? Decided to take my temp just for the sake of it 35.92. A very non pregnant type of temp. 2 glasses of wine for dinner.