I do this thing when I imagine certain moments and then visualise how exactly I want them to play out. Expectations. Hopes. Daydreams. Recently, in the weeks leading up to a family holiday I had this image of the whole week away, a perfect time, joyful and relaxing. Walks on the beach, Charlie splashing in the waves, sand…
Motherhood
Parenting is like a game of Snakes and Ladders
About a month or so ago, there was this weather event in Brisbane that grounded the city to an annoying halt. By weather event, I mean it didn’t stop bloody raining for a whole night and the next day. We weren’t dry but we were perfectly safe so I’m well aware that what I’m about…
This is three
Charlie was just six weeks old when someone said to me that the days are long but the years are short. I was a new mum, truly and madly in love with my son but I also had this weird anxiety about everything so any snippet of wisdom offered to me I grabbed much the…
I’m that mother
I’m that mother that you see at the park. The one who has one eye on their child and another on their phone. Funnily enough, I don’t feel that I’m being watched by other mothers and I don’t feel like I’m being judged. I’ve never had anyone give me a look that says “you’re a…
The strength of mothers
It’s been a bit of an ordinary week in that I know two mothers having a really shit time right now. Really confronting stuff and each are hurting for different reasons. One of whom I’ve been friends with forever and a day, a school friend so I’m talking 30 years of history. Another I don’t know…
The mother I wish I was
Lately I’ve been feeling a bit anxious about my skill as a mother. I use the word skills lightly because I’m mostly just winging motherhood, I sure as hell don’t think I’m particularly skilled at it. I don’t use the word anxious lightly because, well I’m usually anxious about something. Between work, motherhood, being a wife, attempting…